Facing Your Demons
The voices in our head overtime manifest themselves into something much more than we could of imagine — our demons. They are made up of our low self-esteem, anxiety, inability to recognize our own self-worth, and self-love that causes ourselves to be in turmoil. As we try not to listen to the voices in our heads — the negative thoughts will continue to grow and consume our minds. It is only until we face our demons and take control of our life that we will be able to free ourselves and truly find peace within our minds.
For over a decade I’ve been in a tug-a-war battle with my own demons and each time they would of win. I believed that I was incapable of doing anything. I constantly question my own self-worth and devaluing myself, and soon enough these thoughts blossomed into something more — an unhealthy mindset. My unhealthy mindset always makes me focus on the negative aspect of life rather than the good part. Ultimately, I noticed the people I care about, and love soon would depart from my side one by one. Each time I would blame them for the demise of our relationship, but in reality, I was also part of the problem. I just didn’t want to face myself — my demons. I would try to convince myself that it is better for myself that they are no longer in the picture, only to put up a tough front and a cold aura to cover my sadness and pain.
“Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not, and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.”
- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
It isn’t until recently that I’ve lost someone dear to me which make me realize that I have to take action, to take control of my life and face my demons. I have begun to open more about my problems to those around me without letting my fear of being judge get in the way. I wake up each day focusing on the small things that I can improve about myself. Most importantly, I reach out to get the professional help that I need so I can become a better version of myself than the me of yesterday.
Although my journey has just begun, I am starting to see the shackles that chain me down are finally coming off, and for once I am able to find some peace within my mind and know that one day I can truly be happy.
I am not a licensed therapist; I am writing this article to encourage those like myself to face our demons. My journey will be different from yours and your journey will be different from the next individual, however, as long as we are aware of our demons and want to take initiative to change, only then will we be one step closer to finding peace within ourselves and our minds.
Let me know what you are doing to face your demons.
